things to change

I was going to bed last night thinking about the summer to come and was also thinking about all the birthdays that are this summer and how I am a really bad at giving gifts. I am what some people would call a gift card giver. Which to some people is not bed but I wish I could think of really go gifts to each person.
I also realized that I am really bad at small talk. The only time I am good at it is when I know the person. I end up saying really really bed things or just repeat things over. One time I was at a wedding and my friends mom came up to me and ask how I was doing I told her good. Then I told her that I am excited to see my friend when she comes to town and her mom said yes she will probably spend most of her time here with you (me) and I said I hope so. Who would tell a mother of one daughter who live far away that you hope she hangs out with you more than her. Me. That is only one example of how bad I am.
I do not want you to think I am down on myself I think about these things to see what I can change about them. I want to be a better gift giver and a better small talker.